About Emotional Healing
Background
I had always thought of myself as a very level headed and unemotional person,
until about 8 years ago. During a group cultivation sessions, as an exercise, I
was asked to get in touch with my anger, while holding a doll and singing a
lullaby. As soon as I began, a mountain of anger and hatred erupted within me.
I was squeezing the doll and wishing it dead while I sang the lullaby. At the
end of the session, I was weak from shock and severely shaken; I was dismayed
to realize that I had this rage inside and that I was capable of such intense
negative emotions.
Since then, I have come to realize that I am a very emotionally sensitive
person, but I had learned to suppress my feelings and emotions during my
childhood. Emotional behavior was discouraged by my parents and when I
exhibited such behavior, I was either ignored or punished. I remember throwing
temper tantrums as a child and being locked out of the apartment and left in
the dark stairwell to cry myself dry. Lacking emotional support and guidance, I
eventually learned to suppress my feelings and emotions, so as to be accepted
by others.
Although I did not show these feelings and emotions externally, they were still
there underneath the surface. I was like a pressure cooker, nothing showed on
the outside, but inside, things was simmering and cooking. Occasionally, the
inside would reach boiling point and the next unlucky person who crossed my
path would trigger an eruption and receive the blunt of my intense anger.
This was how I lived my life. I thought it was quite normal. But this normal
way of life was making me sick. It wasn't that I had any measurable disease, I
was just not healthy. I had frequent migraine headaches. I lacked stamina. My
allergy attacks were getting worse. Every flu I came down with would turn into
an infection that required a course of antibiotic. I knew I needed to do
something to help myself. But what?
Then I encountered Dr. Michael Chou (Master Chou) and HoChi Universal Love.
Master Chou's goal of helping very person to have "a healthy body, an enlightened
mind, and total fulfillment" resonated deeply within my inner being. I felt
inspired by him and intrigued by the mysterious power of HoChi Universal Love.
Being curious by nature, I wanted to find out more, so I began to practice
HoChi Universal Love.
Emotional Healing
It was at a HoChi UL workshop that I experienced my first emotional healing.
It started with an intense localized pain, followed by an intense emotion,
followed by a flashback of a traumatic childhood incident. One part of me was a
child reliving the incident - I was crying and suffering the emotional pain;
another part of me was an adult witnessing this incident – sympathizing and
soothing this suffering child and understanding the incident from an adult
perspective.
It was over in a few minutes, but I had gained a new understanding of the
circumstances which had led up to that childhood incident. Through this new
understanding, I was able to bring love and forgiveness to the situation, and
release the energies of fear, anger, hatred and resentment that were trapped at
the time of the incident.
After attending more HoChi UL workshops and undergoing more emotional healing
sessions, I realized that what I had experienced each time was a catharsis and
subsequent healing of one of my many emotional wound. The tremendous influx of
Universal Love energy during the workshops plus my own consistent practice of
HoChi UL were bringing about the much needed emotional healing for me.
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